I haven't written in here in a very long time, but it's almost November, again. And I am feeling as pensive as I always am this time of the year. It never goes by without my marking it in some way or another.
I feel like I am "healed," whatever that means. I still think about that ten months all the time, at least once every day, but it is not with the kind of heartache it was before. I know many of the wives hurt during that time have been mended, as well. I think this is the most comforting part of all, knowing these amazing women have been able to repair their hearts, that convinces me it's time to move on and not let this deployment govern me and my emotions any longer.
I haven't written over the last several months because of many things. My husband is back from deployment and has been since early this year and I have been working and schooling all that time, full-time plus some. That has limited time for jotting my feelings, though I feel much better when I get the time to write. And although things have been busy, I have still thought about everyone and everything. In fact, I'll be thinking about 2004-2005 and its trials and tribulations, and I'll remember something from that deployment that I had forgotten.
So, with all that said, where do I go from here? What is next?
7 November is less than a month away...and will I feel "healed" then?
